The Last Two
17th August 2020
I had a great boss, wonderful teammates, good pay and I liked the work I was doing. After all that, I still wanted to quit. I had to find myself and chase my passion. Comfort wasn’t what I needed. I needed to find what I loved to do. Like a friend said to me, "I like it, but it’s not what I like”. He might have been a bit drunk when he said it but he perfectly summarized the way I was feeling about my job. I have always been a creative creature, I played piano since I was maybe 10 years old and I started playing the guitar when I was 13.
1st September 2020
I started to write songs on the guitar, I found solace in songwriting as a way to express my feelings. From that I moved on to FL Studio which is a digital audio workstation, a software for music production. I was making ‘beats’ by the time I was 14. I ended up recording a song with 2 close friends where I sang the chorus. Unfortunately, I haven’t been able to find a copy of the song anymore. Which is for the best because I remember that I sounded horrible. After high school I studied music theory for a year before deciding to go to college to study computer science and that was the death of my creativity. Years later after I graduated and I started working I often found myself questioning my decision. “Why did I change my mind?”, “Why did I give up on my dreams?”.
So that’s it, that’s where I stopped writing. To be exact, I stopped for about 2 weeks in between before writing again in September then stopped again. Now we’re finally in uncharted territory. In a way, starting my blog has been easy to this point. I made a few edits to my old writing and copy/pasted them. Naturally, me being me I’m scared out of my wits to actually write again.
Over the past 2 months, I still haven’t changed my mind to be a writer in one way or another. I’ve written a short story (that I’m not ready to share yet!) and consuming book after book. I rejoined my job, but only part-time. My main focus is still on becoming a writer. I’ll talk more on my path to being a creative writer and on why I rejoined my job in the next blog. I know this is a blog and not a TV series but I keep ending on a cliff hanger for some reason. See you again in the next one!
